After nearly nine years my carefree days of housewifery are over. No more lying idly about the house barefoot watching my stories whilst eating bon bons.
What is a bon bon anyway?
Tomorrow I am starting a job. I re-enter the exciting world of work in the big city.
Ok.. it’s just Akron. I just hope I don’t get lost on the way to work tomorrow.
I can’t say I am entirely looking forward to this, and I also can’t say I am entirely NOT. There is a bit of nervous, hesitant excitement about getting out there and taking on a new challenge, learning new things and meeting new people.
I am after all a little more social than my eHermit husband.
At the same time there is a deep sadness, as I have never been away from my two youngest children for any regular time barring a trip here or there. I will miss out on their day to day antics. I’ll miss the fights, the cool Lego creations the little interesting musings. I won’t be there to add a little extra female balance to the mix for my daughter. And I won’t be there to guide my oldest son through his first days of high school!
I still can’t believe it!
This whole thing just stinks. I haven’t spoken of it, but the job cut was devastating, and at the same time a relief. Things needed to change but we were hoping it would be on our schedule. It was not. We spent the evening of my 40th birthday cutting me back to my old cell phone and trying to figure out how poor we needed to be to get the kids on Medicaid and still keep a roof over our heads.
It’s a delicate balance…
We’ve done alright. Brian is working hard at getting his consulting business off the ground and so far we haven’t even gotten any unemployment.
Dang.. I was looking forward to getting some of that money back!
But health insurance for a family is expensive when you make too much to qualify, and bills are piling up a little so off to work I go. Meanwhile, my brave, brave husband will take over the child rearing duties and in a week and a half take over the homeschooling as well. All while still working on his consulting. I will be able to cover the mortgage, health insurance and perhaps some incidentals, but he needs to carry the rest. That is one thing I am sort of looking forward to.. a bit of team work to get it all done.
Well, I have to get up early in the morning.
Another thing I am NOT looking forward too..
So I have to post this and get to bed.
Brian just made sure the tank is full so I am assured to have plenty of gas for my first day of work.
Great…
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